MOTHER!
Mood:
Insulted!
So tonight my mother called and she just was in some kind of mood! In just over a week my parents and sister are coming here to visit and my mom is just all full of issues again!
She always thinks I'm wrong on everything when it comes to health. It's an issue the two of us have had for a very long time. There is a tear stained pillow somewhere because she called me fat and said many insulting things to me years ago. She refuses to understand the syndrome I'm afflicted with and then tells me all these twisted "heath-nutish" things that are just wrong. Like soy is good for all. What I KNOW about soy is that it's not good for anyone with hormone issues because of the unusually high levels of plant estrogen! Anyway, long insulting story short. Mom called to tell me her plans for while she's up here visiting... Rambled about that for a while... And then started in on me. I kept trying to explain myself only to be accused and insulted more. And its so stupid too. She just can't understand that I do take a responsible approach to my PCOS care. She doesn't see me wearing size 2 pants so I'm just not doing anything right in her eyes. Ah, I can't stand it all.
When I ended the conversations by calmly telling her she needed to calm down and sleep Kevin told me he was proud of how I handled myself, which I really needed to hear, but this all is just so frustrating. She's my mother, but she makes it so completely impossible to respect her when she's so childish and insulting. And the things she holds to is so ignorant!
Needless to say I'm now NOT looking forward to this upcoming visit. My sister has gotten better in recent years and I'm always cool with my dad. He's golden. I honestly have no idea how the two of them work together. She just is so completely controlling and manipulative.
This all just makes me really sad. Having my mom is not something I can control, having PCOS is not something I could have prevented and yet everything wrong with me my mother blames on me! Does she want to keep me constantly depressed?!
I'm going to bed now. I just hope things don't turn out as bad as I'm envisioning now!
Insulted!So tonight my mother called and she just was in some kind of mood! In just over a week my parents and sister are coming here to visit and my mom is just all full of issues again!
She always thinks I'm wrong on everything when it comes to health. It's an issue the two of us have had for a very long time. There is a tear stained pillow somewhere because she called me fat and said many insulting things to me years ago. She refuses to understand the syndrome I'm afflicted with and then tells me all these twisted "heath-nutish" things that are just wrong. Like soy is good for all. What I KNOW about soy is that it's not good for anyone with hormone issues because of the unusually high levels of plant estrogen! Anyway, long insulting story short. Mom called to tell me her plans for while she's up here visiting... Rambled about that for a while... And then started in on me. I kept trying to explain myself only to be accused and insulted more. And its so stupid too. She just can't understand that I do take a responsible approach to my PCOS care. She doesn't see me wearing size 2 pants so I'm just not doing anything right in her eyes. Ah, I can't stand it all.
When I ended the conversations by calmly telling her she needed to calm down and sleep Kevin told me he was proud of how I handled myself, which I really needed to hear, but this all is just so frustrating. She's my mother, but she makes it so completely impossible to respect her when she's so childish and insulting. And the things she holds to is so ignorant!
Needless to say I'm now NOT looking forward to this upcoming visit. My sister has gotten better in recent years and I'm always cool with my dad. He's golden. I honestly have no idea how the two of them work together. She just is so completely controlling and manipulative.
This all just makes me really sad. Having my mom is not something I can control, having PCOS is not something I could have prevented and yet everything wrong with me my mother blames on me! Does she want to keep me constantly depressed?!
I'm going to bed now. I just hope things don't turn out as bad as I'm envisioning now!
Labels: depression, frustrations
posted by Celestial Freak @ 9/24/2005 12:01:00 PM
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