Health update.

So the last few weeks I've been pretty sick. Not really doing much of ANYTHING! I missed church twice. Last sunday I honestly was pouting in bed, trying to will my body to move, but to no avail. I so wanted to be at church, for whatever reason I had to stay home though. I was also dealing with on again off again fevers on the weekend.

My cold FINALLY feels like it's gone, which means I can inject again! I'm so thankful for that. But because it's been 5 weeks (it's normally 2 weeks) since my last injection, my arthritis is raging full force! My knees, back, hips, feet, hands, shoulders are all effected. Mostly my hips and hands and back. My hips keep making so much noise any time I move... it's kind of annoying.

I've had a few days where I've debated going to the ER to get something like vicoden, but really I can grin and bare most of it. And a lot of the pain and inflammation meds I do take, do take care of a lot. Right now I'm a hunch back though... the inflammation in my back and shoulders keeps slumping me over and down. I keep having to focus on sitting straight. It gets to be pretty painful.

I can't sit, stand, lay, or walk for very long... so I have to keep alternating between one or the other. I did make it to ladies fellowship a week and a half ago and by the end of the prayer I just couldn't stay seated anymore. I wanted to start pacing the floor or something, I just was so uncomfortable. I was really embarrassed by that. I always wonder if people think I'm rude for shifting or walking all the time, but if I don't the pain gets to where I can't think straight.

During the weekend when I was just sleeping and weak I didn't really have pain, for that I'm grateful, I had pain, but not like I do at this moment, taking the vitamins helped the energy issues but now pain is just out of control! I've been aggitated all morning. I cooked potato pancakes this morning, normally Kevin just makes himself oatmeal, but I felt like cooking this morning. I'm glad I did, we both enjoyed it, but sitting on my barstool felt like murder on my back, and then I'd try to stand and that felt like murder on my hips. I mostly sat and just enjoyed that I felt energy, but my hands are so horribly swollen. All puffy and watery. I'm back to icing them again, which gets frustrating.

I'm so amazed and thankful and grateful for my church family. There is SOOOO much that needs to happen at home. I'm still learning all the new ways I need to approach things, but these ladies have been so giving and so understanding and supporting. The prayer alone has been an amazing blessing. In the hardest parts of my disease I'd give anything to make it go away, but I know with out it, I wouldn't have need, and with this need I'm being blessed and I hope I'm blessing others. I hope that people can see that God is bigger than this burden of mine. That it's more than just being thankful for what others do for me, but that this shows the body of Christ at work, and all honor and glory goes to him, and not any one particular person.

I'm blessed beyond belief in how close this is drawing me into new and deepening friendships with some of the gals. I'm always a listening ear, and it's been wonderful to share and trust and pray.

Kevin was a work horse on laundry over the weekend. I'm so thankful to have a clean blanket on the bed! Simple joys! I need to kind of wrap this up because my fingers are very stiff. But I wanted to say that yes, I am in a lot of pain right now, but I'm thankful for friends, and for my Savior, and for my messy home that draws together the Body of Christ, oddly enough.